And I diagnosed myself with it.
It's Intolerance of Uncertainty.
You can click HERE for an article that named it for me.
I've blogged a lot about worry...because I can be an expert at it.
Yes! I can be an expert at something!!
Especially Intolerance of Uncertainty.
Ah, but the wonderful thing about aging (which I am doing) is that I can get victories in areas of defeat that I've had in my life... like I. U.
Yes, I can mature... and I have!!!
I used to ruminate over/about different images in my mind... like my kids in car wrecks.
(Car wrecks have taken up a lot of time in my mind.)
(Also cancer. And disapproval. And a long time ago I thought about Khrushchev getting mad and obliterating us.)
Oh and when I had children car wrecks were the least of my I.U....well, until they got older.
There were possible kidnappings, and all kinds of playground accidents that could happen.
You name it, anything could happen.
Intolerance of Uncertainty can be like a ball and chain around your head and heart.
It can strangle your (my) joy.
But there will always be Uncertainty.
And I'm going to tolerate it. Yes.
Along that line here's an old song about that...
(Alison Krauss is singing it.)
I really like the words.
I don't know about tomorrow;
I just live from day to day.
I don't borrow from it's sunshine
For it's skies may turn to grey.
I don't worry o'er the future,
For I know what Jesus said.
And today I'll walk beside Him,
For He knows what is ahead.
Many things about tomorrow
I don't seem to understand
But I know who holds tomorrow
And I know who holds my hand.
Every step is getting brighter
As the golden stairs I climb;
Every burden's getting lighter,
Every cloud is silver-lined.
There the sun is always shining,
There no tear will dim the eye;
At the ending of the rainbow
Where the mountains touch the sky.
Many things about tomorrow;
It may bring me poverty.
But the one who feeds the sparrow,
Is the one who stands by me.
And the path that is my portion
May be through the flame or flood;
But His presence goes before me
And I'm covered with His blood.
And here's a song that was our little Laura's favorite (and I think still is)...
It's "I Cast All My Care Upon You"....
It's based on 1 Peter 5:7...